Disclaimer (Note this one is a bit personal)

 I would like to quickly clarify something I mentioned in my last post.

Yes I have an STD.

It's called Syphilis.


But, I AM A VIRGIN.

At least at the time I'm writing this. But I'll probably still be when I leave this world (finally).


Doctors said I likely inherited it from my biological mother, whom I have no knowledge of since I was like... adopted overseas.

So they say I've probably had it for 20 years if that's the case.


In addition...

I admit I am cursed.

If you are into anime and that sort of culture, you PROBABLY know what I mean by cursed.

If you don't then let me put it this way:

I have dipped my toe into the dark net and the dark net is indeed cursed or at least filled with cursed things. Things the eyes cannot unsee.

Yes, I speak of R34, fellow degenerates.


I have been in knowledge of this kind of "culture" since I was 13 and stumbled across Pokemon and Digimon r34 while casually scrolling through images on my Nintendo Internet Browser.

They were blurry as hell but that didn't matter. Scarred for life!


So as a dude, I naturally got interested in it but still didn't understand hormones until I got to high school!

When I got to high school, let's just say my interest blossomed in silence and away from eyes.

I, of course, denied everything cursed and having any relation to cursedness in school.

Bad for my rep, yknow.


But online, I will fully admit that I am indeed cursed.

And before you ask, yes I have.

Multiple times.

No I don't mean sexual intercourse.

Again, still technically a virgin.

I mean if I'm not then every hentai protagonist isn't a virgin before their first time!

Yeah, makes no sense, right?

So, yes I am a virgin. I haven't done that. 

I'm a total loner so what did you expect. (Oh wait that's new info.)


Yes this post is a bit personal. And it's about to get a little more personal and kind of embarrassing.


I had bladder issues from 3rd to 6th grade.

I wore diapers til I was 14.

No, didn't have issues before or after.


Why did I have issues?

Anxiety for the most part. I wasn't a fan of school restrooms since they were generally public. I didn't realize they had stalls at the time.

And as for nighttime? 

Stupid reason.

I overheard a Bloody Mary story from my classmates and got freaked out by our restroom since it had a bunch of mirrors. There was also a mirror in my room on the way there so I was totally freaked out.

I accepted the darkness by the time I got to high school though, then proceeded to embrace it as I essentially entered emo phase.

End of story.

Hope that clarifies everything. Good day to you all!

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